A New Course


I was in tears yesterday. No, not tears of sorrow but the kind that spring from being touched deeply and profoundly. Interesting that it happened on January 6th, traditionally known as the day of Epiphany.

It happened as I began a writing course called The Creative Way by Ted Dekker.

A few months ago I almost emptied my writing bank account to buy this course. I’d seen it advertised a few times and kept thinking about it, looking at it, trying to gauge whether or not it was worth the money. I kept thinking about the exchange rate and how that bumped the product up to a cost I would not normally entertain. But I kept going back to it again and again. I felt there was something there that God wanted me to investigate. So I took the plunge.

The first module stirred me deeply, not because it was anything I hadn’t heard before but because it was all about something my heart reaches for – abiding in Christ. Mr. Dekker tells his own story and then gets to the bottom line – our identity does not lie in who we are as mothers or fathers or plumbers or dentists or yes, even as novelists. Our true identity lies in the fact that we are children of God. Our freedom and release spiritually and creatively lies in believing how deeply He loves us. The premise is that “transformative fiction” comes from a heart that is resting in that place because that heart is first and foremost seeking to go deeper into that identity. The process teaches us to love God, love ourselves and others as ourselves and our work becomes part of that process.

I knew that. I believed that. But until yesterday I was not whole-heartedly pursuing that path.

I remember chatting with a writer friend some time ago about the fact that I’m a two time cancer survivor. I mentioned that I did not once ask God, “why me?” My only question as I walked down that path, was, “Who are you, God? Who are you really?”

My friend smiled. “You’re ready,” she said.

I didn’t understand what she meant then, but I do now. I’m ready to let go of me – as a mother, pastor’s wife, church leader and yes, even as a writer. I’m ready to get to know who I really am. I have a feeling this course is going to do what Ted promised in his introduction. It is going to change my life and my work.

I’ll be blogging about it here as I go. I’d be happy if you would like to follow along and comment from time to time.



8 thoughts on “A New Course

  1. Audrey January 7, 2017 / 2:13 pm

    Marci, you have been on my heart a great deal the past few weeks.

    • marcialeelaycock January 7, 2017 / 2:55 pm

      Hi Audrey – nice to hear from you. Doing okay, but feeling like something’s coming … hmmm. m

  2. lisa evola January 7, 2017 / 2:26 pm

    Sounds like a great experience Marcia! I look forward to hearing more about it

  3. Linda Fode January 8, 2017 / 9:51 am

    I look forward to following you on this journey.

  4. Brenda Leyland January 11, 2017 / 3:33 pm

    I enjoyed hearing about your newest leg of your journey. Sounds exciting and well worth pursuing. I wish you His best-best as you begin. Brenda

  5. Rita Kroon January 11, 2017 / 4:44 pm

    Hi, Marcia, I’m delighted to learn that you will be blogging about your discoveries with the Ted Dekker course! I too am in a place where I want to abide more deeply in Christ Jesus – to know Him deeper. Thanks for letting us tag along with you on your journey! Rita Kroon, author and blogger

  6. Terrie Todd January 16, 2017 / 6:14 pm

    Thanks for this, Marcia. I got to hear Ted Dekker’s story at ACFW conference last summer and will be reading your blog with interest…before I decide whether to jump in as well! 🙂 God bless you on this journey!

    • marcialeelaycock January 17, 2017 / 9:14 am

      Thanks for the comment, Terrie. Will be doing another post soon. :)m

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